I attract the odd ones!

Ive had an interesting week so far.

Me and X baby daddy are on good terms, but i cant help but wonder for how long.

Things have always been up and down with us. Gia finds our relationship amusing. I do to...I admit it although I dont like to. Its like I thrive on complications and troubled people. Its true i swear, I tend to be drawn to the men who have problems as long as a lil kids Christmas lists.

X baby Daddy (geez he so needs a new name-any suggestions) for example, he's had one of those really abnormal and insanely traumatic childhoods. he was raised by his Dad, as his mom remarried and put him on a train for almost 16hours,all by himself, at the age of 6 to live with his dad coz she didnt want him to grow up seeing how her hubby beat her up and ofcourse him being caught in the middle.

He saw it though. I admire her for loving him that much to send him away, where he had a chance to grow up in a healthy environment opposed to the emotional torture he went through living with her.

he was given this chance by Mr Principle (his dad). I call him this because he was always hectic on his principles that he tried to instill in his kids, even the outsiders like me, i was treated like his kid, he even scolded me at times. lol. the good old days.

Anyway, im so so off the point. So Im drawn to these people. Im a quite stable person, I know what I want in life and who I want and when I want it,most of the time i just like defying my goals and well rebel but im quite stable, obviously things dont always go the way u always plan, u end up with a broken heart, a lost friendship, but it all makes your character stronger right?

Losing someone special and the one u thought ud spend your life with isnt easy, i lost him a long ago and since then we've been on the looping star, turning us upside down, then round and round and somehow, we like lil dogs that always find there way back.

Ive asked him many times, why cant u just leave me alone and move on with your life?

His answer always remains the same , "its not me,its my heart"

but heres the q, if its his heart, why keep defying it?

anyhoo... he is troubled and somehow i think i always wanna help the troublesome, ive always been doing this, i just cant help myself.

Troubled people+ Liz = hey i dunno, i just love them.